Is it madness?

Today after work me and Scottie went to the Witch's Ball planning meeting. We met at the same cafe we were at last time. I think at our first meeting there were 6 of us in total, though obviously more people for planning something like this would be better. I wasn't prepared to find 14 (or more?) people at tonight's meeting! At least one of them wasn't even going to be in the country during the ball, and I've never seen him at anything before (and I think he lives somewhere else?). He donated something to the auction which was nice, and he had suggestions which were probably helpful, but it was weird. There were other people like that at the meeting and I was slightly perplexed.

We have a location, which is good. Tickets will be $20 per person, which is about what I was expecting (but it is expensive), even for people on the planning committee. I had assumed we'd be paying to get in anyway, but the priestess said that she'd been planning on not making the planners pay until just now because we're getting the event catered (which we weren't going to do before). I'd rather it not be catered tbh. Apparently we're getting seafood chowder for a light dinner (which I'm not excited about) made by a chef who always does Mexican, but he's bored of Mexican! So he can expiriment with something else!

Erm, am I alone in wondering if this is the best plan? o_O Also, $20 seems expensive for a light soup meal.

I am a bit annoyed to pay the exact same price to go this party as someone off the street who will just be going in to have fun when we've been and will be putting time and effort into making the party happen. Scottie and I will be essentially "working the front desk" as it were, greeting guests and delivering them to the announcer (I have no idea how long this will end up taking, but we're not going to be at the actual party during this time), and we're going to set that up as well as get the materials for it together, etc. Scottie says that I don't have to do it since he volunteered for it (though probably more accurate was that we were volunteered for it and we were ok with it), but I really do want to do it. It's just, I dunno, now it feels unappreciated. Does that make sense? I'm ridiculously tired so maybe it doesn't.

Then the rest of the meeting was frustrating for various reasons. Because of the above ticket thing, the planning that involved giving them more resources was a bit annoying. Hey everyone, one person decided that we all need to bring in dessert (but, we're being catered?), who wants to buy decorations, you guys should donate stuff for our auction, who wants to stay and clean up after the drunk people, etc etc. The theme of "pay us for the privilege to give us your time and resources" is a big pet peeve of mine though, regardless of what's going on. It just rubs me the wrong way. Obviously I'm ok with helping, and I'm ok with paying, but I couldn't help but be a bit frustrated anyway. I think it had a lot to do with how it was handled.

I was also getting really stressed out at the meeting because it was just so loud and overwhelming. Scottie and I were sitting near the back of the room so I didn't really feel like I could contribute much of anything. I mean, Scottie was sitting right next to me and he didn't know what I was saying half the time. There were some people at the meeting who were rather loud and just rub me the wrong way. There was a lot of energy in the room and it was stressing Scottie out (which also gave him a headache, which makes me worry), and him being stressed out and in pain was stressing me out, and I have social anxiety as it is so just being in that environment stresses me out, and ugh. e_e That wasn't what I was expecting at all.

With these things and some other less definable frustrations, I just ended up really wanting to scepter smack SOMEBODY as the meeting went on.


Scottie left for a little bit to get some air, and he brought in my sketchbook when he came back. I am happy to report that I have a pretty nice design going for my costume now! lol
I was actually keeping stuff together pretty well by channeling energy into drawing (and I do art while doing other things all the time, so I was still paying attention to the meeting), but then someone asked me to stop for reasons that I couldn't figure out because it was too loud, which Scottie told me why once we were out and it was ok... but I was like "how is my drawing stressing you out? I... what? Dx" And then she kept projecting her unknown stress at me and that certainly didn't help anything. Everything just went downhill from there for me.

We ended up ducking out before the end of the meeting because I was having an anxiety attack and Scottie was also ridiculously stressed out. *facepalm* Anyway, it's taken me forever to unwind from that.

I am still excited about the party though, and my costume, and everything, but I was frustrated so I wrote this. I'm not sure why exactly now though. *facepalm*

I was totally going to post about more interesting things and then I got off on this tangent! aaaaa Now it's time for bed though (it was a while ago though *koff*)

So Scottie and I picked up a used copy of Borderlands 2 last Friday. We loved the first game, and it was especially awesome because it's one of those games that you can actually play with someone in the same room, not just online! And they don't have some weird split screen that makes it impossible to play (I'M LOOKING AT YOU RE5). So we'd been looking forward to playing it. We don't have any expansions yet, but we're having a lot of fun!

Anyway, something happened in the game tonight that I thought was funny. Note, minor spoilers for a side quest.

On our first run through the game together Scottie and I picked Roland (soldier) and Lilith (siren- firey magic user). The new game has new characters to play as, but the old characters make cameos in the game. Which is awesome. It turned out that Roland and Lilith are kind of an item (we're not sure exactly how much of an item), but we were like w00t that's awesome because that was our team!

Tonight we went looking for some recordings of the both of them. While we were listening to the two of them, Scottie said "That's totally us!" for the first recording. Lilith goes on to tell Roland how she'd decorated their previous place, a flabbergasted Roland said it was grusome because it involved charred corpses, and she disagreed and said she was making it cozy. Scottie was like "I could see that! Wait, I could see you decorating a place with corpses I should be more disturbed by that than I am..."
I probably should have argued against that harder, I mean, that would probably smell bad.

I'm a Loki minion, not a Reaver. Corpses should be disposed of!

In less disturbing context, my decorating sense is rather different from Scotties. It's like "Hey cutie isn't this cute?! :D" "If you mean creepy, sure?" or "Weeee so pretty!" "Oh god it has craft herpes there is glitter everywhere!" "I will buy them allllll" or "That's not a lot of dolls?" *Scottie buried under avalanche*.

The next recording had Lilith excitedly telling Roland that she accidently liquified a guy, but it was awesome because WOOT new powers (and erm, he was totes a bad guy) and Roland was all like "you look pale?" (so like, are you ok crazy woman?) and she was like "Oh right I passed out a few times but MAN THAT WAS COOL". Still us.


And because Hiddles is the angel on my shoulder...


I think I was going to go somewhere else with this, but now it's late and I need to get to sleep!

This is what I wanted to do to at least part of today.



...the things that cheer me up sometimes...

I thought it was neat. n_n'

I Am A: True Neutral Elf Druid/Ranger (3rd/2nd Level)


Ability Scores:
Strength-13
Dexterity-12
Constitution-15
Intelligence-16
Wisdom-13
Charisma-11


Alignment:
True Neutral A true neutral character does what seems to be a good idea. He doesn't feel strongly one way or the other when it comes to good vs. evil or law vs. chaos. Most true neutral characters exhibit a lack of conviction or bias rather than a commitment to neutrality. Such a character thinks of good as better than evil after all, he would rather have good neighbors and rulers than evil ones. Still, he's not personally committed to upholding good in any abstract or universal way. Some true neutral characters, on the other hand, commit themselves philosophically to neutrality. They see good, evil, law, and chaos as prejudices and dangerous extremes. They advocate the middle way of neutrality as the best, most balanced road in the long run. True neutral is the best alignment you can be because it means you act naturally, without prejudice or compulsion. However, true neutral can be a dangerous alignment when it represents apathy, indifference, and a lack of conviction.


Race:
Elves are known for their poetry, song, and magical arts, but when danger threatens they show great skill with weapons and strategy. Elves can live to be over 700 years old and, by human standards, are slow to make friends and enemies, and even slower to forget them. Elves are slim and stand 4.5 to 5.5 feet tall. They have no facial or body hair, prefer comfortable clothes, and possess unearthly grace. Many others races find them hauntingly beautiful.


Primary Class:
Druids gain power not by ruling nature but by being at one with it. They hate the unnatural, including aberrations or undead, and destroy them where possible. Druids receive divine spells from nature, not the gods, and can gain an array of powers as they gain experience, including the ability to take the shapes of animals. The weapons and armor of a druid are restricted by their traditional oaths, not simply training. A druid's Wisdom score should be high, as this determines the maximum spell level that they can cast.


Secondary Class:
Rangers are skilled stalkers and hunters who make their home in the woods. Their martial skill is nearly the equal of the fighter, but they lack the latter's dedication to the craft of fighting. Instead, the ranger focuses his skills and training on a specific enemy a type of creature he bears a vengeful grudge against and hunts above all others. Rangers often accept the role of protector, aiding those who live in or travel through the woods. His skills allow him to move quietly and stick to the shadows, especially in natural settings, and he also has special knowledge of certain types of creatures. Finally, an experienced ranger has such a tie to nature that he can actually draw on natural power to cast divine spells, much as a druid does, and like a druid he is often accompanied by animal companions. A ranger's Wisdom score should be high, as this determines the maximum spell level that he can cast.


Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus (e-mail)

I feel bad that I haven't been updating regularly this week! I've just been so tired. I was working extra hours at work throughout the week so I could leave early today so I could go to the dentist. I only had to go in today to get a cleaning and a checkup at least! I was really excited to get my teeth cleaned though because this fall I must have been drinking more soda than usual because I ended up with more staining than usual. I've always gotten a little bit of staining over the course of time before my cleaning because I do drink soda and tea, but this time was waaay more than I'm used to. It all got cleaned off though today! I feel like I need to smile at everyone now. lol

The cleaning itself was interesting though. The woman who was cleaning my teeth used a different tool to clean off the stains, it looked like a pick but it had a stream of water and I think it vibrated. As she was cleaning my front teeth she was like spraying water all over my face. I felt like I was going to look like I came out of the pool by the time she was done. Then when she was cleaning my teeth more normally she decided she needed to pack my mouth with cotton gauze. That was odd and kind of uncomfortable. :P
I hadn't had my teeth cleaned by this hygenist before. I was sort of sad because the woman who I'd scheduled with wasn't the one who did it this time, maybe she left? There seems to be turnover there for some reason. The other girl had just been really funny and chatty and made the time go by faster. The new woman was nice and got my teeth cleaned fine though, so despite some of the oddness I can't complain.

Then my old dentist moved to Texas so I met my new dentist today. He talked about getting my wisdom teeth out (I know I need to, but I haven't been able to swing the extra cost of going to the oral surgeon, plus I'd need to take some time off of work to get it done and then how long will it be before I can go back to work... Also dentists freak me right the fuck out so I know I need to but I am not looking forward to this.).

He then also asked me if I'd want to get braces. I do have some crowding in my teeth, but luckily the majority of crookedness is in my back teeth. He said that while I was getting my wisdom teeth out, I could get more teeth pulled out so an orthodontist could work with the extra space.

Then he started futzing around with my tongue, and I was like ooookay I don't know what this has to do with my teeth, then I realized what he was probably doing. I'm tongue tied but it doesn't affect my speech at all, and as I'd have to relearn how to talk and stuff when I was younger we decided it wasn't worth messing with. Anyway, so the dentist is like "Do you have trouble pronouncing certain words?". Do a lot of people who are tongue tied not realize that they are or something? I think it's kind of ridiculous that he seemed to assume that I did not realize this was the case, so he was going to have some sort of big reveal.

He said that I could get my tongue snipped the same time I was getting my wisdom teeth out! I realize getting the most bang for your buck is good since I'd be knocked out, but he really thinks I should get 4 wisdom teeth out, 2-4 other teeth out, and slice up my tongue all at the same time? o_O I feel like I'd want to kill him for the suggestion if I decided it was a brilliant plan to go through with all of it but wouldn't be able to since my face would probably want to fall off or something.

I'm actually ok with my weird teeth so I'm not sure about braces, and I really don't think I'm going to go crazy and pull out ALL THE TEETH when I do go to the oral surgeon. I'm certainly not going to start messing with my tongue. Is it a requirement of a new dentist to make sure that all possible expensive procedures are introduced? e_e

Good news though, no cavities, besides any in my wisdom teeth that we never look at because they're going to get pulled out eventually. I do need to get a couple of things fixed up from the work that my previous dentist did, there's a gap under one of my fillings and flash on a different one. But yay no cavities!

I really didn't mean to make such a long entry about going to the dentist. o_O

So I was looking at my f-list, one friend of mine had mentioned Heath Ledger and pills. I thought nothing of it past the possible 'crazy celebrity partying and does crazy shit while on drugs' story. Disappointing, because that sort of thing isn't good either, but then I read another friends entry where she said he had died. o.O

So I looked it up and it looks like he might have overdosed on sleeping pills, but there haven't been any tests completed yet so people don't know exactly the cause of death. I don't know why he would have killed himself, I don't really follow celebrity stories but even my casual notice of trash magazine stories didn't feature him in turbulent times. I got the idea from the death news stories that he might have been having romantic problems, but dude. He was a handsome guy. I wouldn't think it'd be hard for him to find someone to be with. But of course if it wasn't that special someone... I dunno, I don't know the story, and I'm not going to go digging to find out.

He was only 28. That's crazy. While I'm not exactly broken up over his death, I didn't know him obviously and I'm not even some obsessive fan, it's still sad because it's such a waste. He was a good actor and I enjoyed many of the movies he's been in. And I heard that he was going to be the Joker in the upcoming Batman movie (which answers my question as to whether or not they're planning on redoing all of the Batman movies with the new actor- it looks like they are, which is good but not the point of this post), and I think he would have done a great job. I don't think I've seen him as a villain before, I think that would have been really cool to see. I feel kind of weird about saying that. I don't mean it in a 'How dare you die, you're making me miss out!' way, I just mean that he was still doing some really cool stuff- it's not like he was some washed up actor that nobody cared about anymore. Not that that should be a good reason to kill yourself, but at least it would be somewhat understandable. If that makes any sense. And even though I'm childfree, it doesn't mean I'm heartless in anything involving kids- he did have a little daughter, and that's sad too because she's now lost her father.

Ah well, wasted talent and all that. I know this entry might seem a bit pointless, and it might be, but I still felt like posting it anyway. :P

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1. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random
The first article title on the page is the name of your band.
My band is named Anticonformism.

2. http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3
The last four words of the very last quote is the title of your album.
Our first album is called "I don't like composers who think. It gets in the way of their plagiarism."

3. http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days/
The third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.

Here's the photo with the text on it:




Now to go snowshoeing...

Ok, I don't know if this is true or not. I stumbled across this as I was searching for layout help. YES I AM FINDING SO MUCH RELEVANT STUFF. I should have my layout done already and be starting a layout community at this rate. Right. I shouldn't be doing this when I'm so tired.

What was I saying? Oh yeah. Random info. It's nearing 2 am so I'm not even going to attempt to find if this is true or not. But I read that Joss Whedon is going to do a live action movie of Sailor Moon. Truth? I have no idea, but it looked legit enough. Even if it isn't true, just imagine that for a minute.

Joss Whedon. Sailor Moon. Not something I would have thought of normally. lol

Well, at the very least, Uranus and Neptune should be a couple and not cousins. Cousins my arse. :P