Is it madness?

What language would you like to be able to speak? arctic_comet
The first language I would say is Japanese, no question. I've taken classes but I haven't had a chance to really commit to actually learning it.
Then I would have to say elvish. It's another thing that I've noodled around with learning.

In other news, I went to the dentist today. Dentists freak me out now because of some rather poor experiences and the anxiety attacks I have are sort of ridiculous.
Though I was amused by when the dentist was like "Go to your happy place... Sandy beaches..."

This is my happy place. ehehe
But then I was like CHANNEL LOKI TANYA HE WOULDN'T LET THIS BOTHER HIM THIS IS NOTHING YOU SAY THAT HE'S YOUR SPIRIT ANIMAL CALM THE FUCK DOWN. It actually helped a lot. I'm kinda proud of that. Thank you Loki~
My face still hurts and my jaw doesn't work correctly and my gums hurt but other than that yay for being done. e_e Also, my mouth still tastes like that stuff. Ick.

I was amused that Scottie took me out for a milkshake after because I sort of didn't eat due to nerves (not that I remember to eat on a normal day, but still), and I kept feeling like I was going to swallow my tongue when I would try to drink because half of my face was still numb.

Talked to my sister today. Learned some stuffs that have been going on with the rest of my disowned family. For all those new here- that is everyone in my family except for my sister. My gramma was my Frigga and she is dead.

Loki is my spirit animal for many reasons. This is in truth how I feel about my family as well.
At first I was filled with rage. But I dealt with much of this rage this fall... So I guess it isn't quite as bad as it could have been. I mean, Odin my mother was already not my mother anymore, so it doesn't really have anything to do with me. But still.

"Family" does nothing but disappoint.

I feel bad that I haven't been updating regularly this week! I've just been so tired. I was working extra hours at work throughout the week so I could leave early today so I could go to the dentist. I only had to go in today to get a cleaning and a checkup at least! I was really excited to get my teeth cleaned though because this fall I must have been drinking more soda than usual because I ended up with more staining than usual. I've always gotten a little bit of staining over the course of time before my cleaning because I do drink soda and tea, but this time was waaay more than I'm used to. It all got cleaned off though today! I feel like I need to smile at everyone now. lol

The cleaning itself was interesting though. The woman who was cleaning my teeth used a different tool to clean off the stains, it looked like a pick but it had a stream of water and I think it vibrated. As she was cleaning my front teeth she was like spraying water all over my face. I felt like I was going to look like I came out of the pool by the time she was done. Then when she was cleaning my teeth more normally she decided she needed to pack my mouth with cotton gauze. That was odd and kind of uncomfortable. :P
I hadn't had my teeth cleaned by this hygenist before. I was sort of sad because the woman who I'd scheduled with wasn't the one who did it this time, maybe she left? There seems to be turnover there for some reason. The other girl had just been really funny and chatty and made the time go by faster. The new woman was nice and got my teeth cleaned fine though, so despite some of the oddness I can't complain.

Then my old dentist moved to Texas so I met my new dentist today. He talked about getting my wisdom teeth out (I know I need to, but I haven't been able to swing the extra cost of going to the oral surgeon, plus I'd need to take some time off of work to get it done and then how long will it be before I can go back to work... Also dentists freak me right the fuck out so I know I need to but I am not looking forward to this.).

He then also asked me if I'd want to get braces. I do have some crowding in my teeth, but luckily the majority of crookedness is in my back teeth. He said that while I was getting my wisdom teeth out, I could get more teeth pulled out so an orthodontist could work with the extra space.

Then he started futzing around with my tongue, and I was like ooookay I don't know what this has to do with my teeth, then I realized what he was probably doing. I'm tongue tied but it doesn't affect my speech at all, and as I'd have to relearn how to talk and stuff when I was younger we decided it wasn't worth messing with. Anyway, so the dentist is like "Do you have trouble pronouncing certain words?". Do a lot of people who are tongue tied not realize that they are or something? I think it's kind of ridiculous that he seemed to assume that I did not realize this was the case, so he was going to have some sort of big reveal.

He said that I could get my tongue snipped the same time I was getting my wisdom teeth out! I realize getting the most bang for your buck is good since I'd be knocked out, but he really thinks I should get 4 wisdom teeth out, 2-4 other teeth out, and slice up my tongue all at the same time? o_O I feel like I'd want to kill him for the suggestion if I decided it was a brilliant plan to go through with all of it but wouldn't be able to since my face would probably want to fall off or something.

I'm actually ok with my weird teeth so I'm not sure about braces, and I really don't think I'm going to go crazy and pull out ALL THE TEETH when I do go to the oral surgeon. I'm certainly not going to start messing with my tongue. Is it a requirement of a new dentist to make sure that all possible expensive procedures are introduced? e_e

Good news though, no cavities, besides any in my wisdom teeth that we never look at because they're going to get pulled out eventually. I do need to get a couple of things fixed up from the work that my previous dentist did, there's a gap under one of my fillings and flash on a different one. But yay no cavities!

I really didn't mean to make such a long entry about going to the dentist. o_O