milleniumgypsy | Not the most productive night ever

Today after work me and Scottie went to the Witch's Ball planning meeting. We met at the same cafe we were at last time. I think at our first meeting there were 6 of us in total, though obviously more people for planning something like this would be better. I wasn't prepared to find 14 (or more?) people at tonight's meeting! At least one of them wasn't even going to be in the country during the ball, and I've never seen him at anything before (and I think he lives somewhere else?). He donated something to the auction which was nice, and he had suggestions which were probably helpful, but it was weird. There were other people like that at the meeting and I was slightly perplexed.

We have a location, which is good. Tickets will be $20 per person, which is about what I was expecting (but it is expensive), even for people on the planning committee. I had assumed we'd be paying to get in anyway, but the priestess said that she'd been planning on not making the planners pay until just now because we're getting the event catered (which we weren't going to do before). I'd rather it not be catered tbh. Apparently we're getting seafood chowder for a light dinner (which I'm not excited about) made by a chef who always does Mexican, but he's bored of Mexican! So he can expiriment with something else!
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Erm, am I alone in wondering if this is the best plan? o_O Also, $20 seems expensive for a light soup meal.

I am a bit annoyed to pay the exact same price to go this party as someone off the street who will just be going in to have fun when we've been and will be putting time and effort into making the party happen. Scottie and I will be essentially "working the front desk" as it were, greeting guests and delivering them to the announcer (I have no idea how long this will end up taking, but we're not going to be at the actual party during this time), and we're going to set that up as well as get the materials for it together, etc. Scottie says that I don't have to do it since he volunteered for it (though probably more accurate was that we were volunteered for it and we were ok with it), but I really do want to do it. It's just, I dunno, now it feels unappreciated. Does that make sense? I'm ridiculously tired so maybe it doesn't.

Then the rest of the meeting was frustrating for various reasons. Because of the above ticket thing, the planning that involved giving them more resources was a bit annoying. Hey everyone, one person decided that we all need to bring in dessert (but, we're being catered?), who wants to buy decorations, you guys should donate stuff for our auction, who wants to stay and clean up after the drunk people, etc etc. The theme of "pay us for the privilege to give us your time and resources" is a big pet peeve of mine though, regardless of what's going on. It just rubs me the wrong way. Obviously I'm ok with helping, and I'm ok with paying, but I couldn't help but be a bit frustrated anyway. I think it had a lot to do with how it was handled.

I was also getting really stressed out at the meeting because it was just so loud and overwhelming. Scottie and I were sitting near the back of the room so I didn't really feel like I could contribute much of anything. I mean, Scottie was sitting right next to me and he didn't know what I was saying half the time. There were some people at the meeting who were rather loud and just rub me the wrong way. There was a lot of energy in the room and it was stressing Scottie out (which also gave him a headache, which makes me worry), and him being stressed out and in pain was stressing me out, and I have social anxiety as it is so just being in that environment stresses me out, and ugh. e_e That wasn't what I was expecting at all.

With these things and some other less definable frustrations, I just ended up really wanting to scepter smack SOMEBODY as the meeting went on.
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Scottie left for a little bit to get some air, and he brought in my sketchbook when he came back. I am happy to report that I have a pretty nice design going for my costume now! lol
I was actually keeping stuff together pretty well by channeling energy into drawing (and I do art while doing other things all the time, so I was still paying attention to the meeting), but then someone asked me to stop for reasons that I couldn't figure out because it was too loud, which Scottie told me why once we were out and it was ok... but I was like "how is my drawing stressing you out? I... what? Dx" And then she kept projecting her unknown stress at me and that certainly didn't help anything. Everything just went downhill from there for me.

We ended up ducking out before the end of the meeting because I was having an anxiety attack and Scottie was also ridiculously stressed out. *facepalm* Anyway, it's taken me forever to unwind from that.

I am still excited about the party though, and my costume, and everything, but I was frustrated so I wrote this. I'm not sure why exactly now though. *facepalm*

I was totally going to post about more interesting things and then I got off on this tangent! aaaaa Now it's time for bed though (it was a while ago though *koff*)