Leaving soon.

I'm leaving in a couple days, 12:10 am Friday. (Oi, yuck.) I'm taking the bus to Delaware. It'll take me about 3 days to get there. I'm excited about the job really, though what I feel isn't excitement. I'm just really sad. :( It's going to suck to be away from Scottie for three months. I'm sure that it will go by fast, it's not like I'm going to be away for 3 years or anything... But that's rational thought. Doesn't really make me feel better. >_>; I've done this before, and for longer. But that doesn't really help. I can look back on it and say... "I've done it before, and we can do it again." But I also remember how much I missed him. So I already know how much it's going to suck for me. And this time I won't even have my friends and family like before.

I'm thinking about visiting my family too before I come back out here, so that will make it even longer before I get back. But I should/want to visit when I have the chance. At my wedding I felt like I was saying goodbye to my dog and my gramma for perhaps the last time. My dog has already died. Gramma is in bad health. She just got out of the hospital, doctors thought she wasn't going to make it yet again. I know, if I had dug a hole for gramma every time a doctor said she was going to die I'd be in China and heading back again. That doesn't change the fact that she IS getting weaker and worse constantly. It can't last forever.
So as much as I'm going to be wanting to run across the country to get back to Scottie at the end of this job, I can't really justify NOT visiting gramma if I have the opportunity. And one more week away will suck but it won't change the time that much really.

I have a headache now from being upset. x_x