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I miss Scottie. I wish I could visit him. Damn money.
Having problems putting what I feel into words atm.
I think I'm going to call Carrie. x.x I need to get my mind off of it.
Today I'm stuck babysitting. It's the first day I've had off in four days, so that's good. This morning me and Carrie went out to breakfast at Slims Cafe, then a little bit later we went uptown to go to the library. And found it closed... for cleaning... for 2 weeks! Why they need to close the library for 2 weeks to clean I don't know... So we went to a used bookstore that's going out of business and everything is half off. I bought 4 books for $6, Carrie bought 3 for $5. I've never been in that store before. Yeah yeah, I need more books like a hole in the head, especially considering I'm borrowing 2 books of Carrie's and I have 2 more books of Scottie's to read after I finish Northern Lights (which I only have a tiny bit left of). I felt kinda bad spending the money, but pretty much I've given up on being able to go to Isle Royale. I don't have the money to do it, and really, $6 isn't exactly going to change that much. I've been a miser all summer long, but it really doesn't do a damn bit of good when I don't have much of a cash flow to speak of, and I have to buy books soon. I wanted to take that marine biology class this spring, but I can't afford that either. It'll cost me like something over $1000 I'm pretty sure. I'm not coming up with that anytime soon. I can't even spare $100... xP
I need to call Carrie. We're going down her camp tomorrow, and we need to figure out when we're leaving.
Want to know what I should be doing today though really, instead of babysitting? Well, I should be at work. Technically, I wanted to cover Justine's shift today, though I had the day off. Her boyfriend came home today from Iraq, going to be on leave, and she wanted to see him. I was the only person who could cover for her, and she was like 'I'll cover any shift for you!' She knew that I was mistakenly scheduled for Saturday and that's when I'm going with my grandparents to pick up my sister from Baycliff that day. But I got the schedule changed around before that and don't have to work anymore on Saturday anyway, but she offered to work that for me. She said that her boyfriend hasn't even seen their baby yet, and childfree or not, I can still see where she's coming from with that statement (still, guilt trip much? Arg!)... I would have worked for her, because that must be hard waiting so long for him to come home and then the first day that he's back you have to work 10-7. I understand something of what she feels, though I'm sure what she's feeling is worse. I know how I feel, and to put myself in her place is worse than that...
I called mom from work and saw if I could, but mom said that I could not leave my brother alone for her shift because it's 9 hours. Even though my brother is friggin 13. He's lost though. x.x It drives me nuts, because he's old enough to take care of himself. At his age I was babysitting my sister and brother for hours at a time. When mom worked I'd be in charge all day long, cooking for myself and my siblings, cleaning, and all the household stuff. And my brother is the most useless thing I've ever seen, and can't be left to watch himself for the day at 13.
When I told Justine that I wished I could cover for her I couldn't, it almost looked like she was going to cry. Poor girl... but really, I couldn't do it... Maybe she can get someone else to work for her instead, but she didn't think anyone else could...
Having problems putting what I feel into words atm.
I think I'm going to call Carrie. x.x I need to get my mind off of it.
Today I'm stuck babysitting. It's the first day I've had off in four days, so that's good. This morning me and Carrie went out to breakfast at Slims Cafe, then a little bit later we went uptown to go to the library. And found it closed... for cleaning... for 2 weeks! Why they need to close the library for 2 weeks to clean I don't know... So we went to a used bookstore that's going out of business and everything is half off. I bought 4 books for $6, Carrie bought 3 for $5. I've never been in that store before. Yeah yeah, I need more books like a hole in the head, especially considering I'm borrowing 2 books of Carrie's and I have 2 more books of Scottie's to read after I finish Northern Lights (which I only have a tiny bit left of). I felt kinda bad spending the money, but pretty much I've given up on being able to go to Isle Royale. I don't have the money to do it, and really, $6 isn't exactly going to change that much. I've been a miser all summer long, but it really doesn't do a damn bit of good when I don't have much of a cash flow to speak of, and I have to buy books soon. I wanted to take that marine biology class this spring, but I can't afford that either. It'll cost me like something over $1000 I'm pretty sure. I'm not coming up with that anytime soon. I can't even spare $100... xP
I need to call Carrie. We're going down her camp tomorrow, and we need to figure out when we're leaving.
Want to know what I should be doing today though really, instead of babysitting? Well, I should be at work. Technically, I wanted to cover Justine's shift today, though I had the day off. Her boyfriend came home today from Iraq, going to be on leave, and she wanted to see him. I was the only person who could cover for her, and she was like 'I'll cover any shift for you!' She knew that I was mistakenly scheduled for Saturday and that's when I'm going with my grandparents to pick up my sister from Baycliff that day. But I got the schedule changed around before that and don't have to work anymore on Saturday anyway, but she offered to work that for me. She said that her boyfriend hasn't even seen their baby yet, and childfree or not, I can still see where she's coming from with that statement (still, guilt trip much? Arg!)... I would have worked for her, because that must be hard waiting so long for him to come home and then the first day that he's back you have to work 10-7. I understand something of what she feels, though I'm sure what she's feeling is worse. I know how I feel, and to put myself in her place is worse than that...
I called mom from work and saw if I could, but mom said that I could not leave my brother alone for her shift because it's 9 hours. Even though my brother is friggin 13. He's lost though. x.x It drives me nuts, because he's old enough to take care of himself. At his age I was babysitting my sister and brother for hours at a time. When mom worked I'd be in charge all day long, cooking for myself and my siblings, cleaning, and all the household stuff. And my brother is the most useless thing I've ever seen, and can't be left to watch himself for the day at 13.
When I told Justine that I wished I could cover for her I couldn't, it almost looked like she was going to cry. Poor girl... but really, I couldn't do it... Maybe she can get someone else to work for her instead, but she didn't think anyone else could...
