Urg

Ok, finals are this week. Tomorrow I have a biostats final at 5:15 pm, and I've been feverently working on stuff for that. I'm tired though now, and am taking a break. However, now that I'm in the last few problems (it's like a few hours left of work if I do them all...) I'm not sure how many of them I should do. Obviously none of them are going to be collected anymore, it's just that if I don't do them I won't understand how to work the final. lol So I'm working thru them, and I've come to where I -think- he stopped lecturing. We're not responsible to know what he hasn't lectured on... and he's a bit behind. I know that he's including some of the contingency tables on the final... but I don't know how far he expects us to go really. I think I'm actually already further than I need to be... like I was going along and the homework was having me do a haber corrected chi square for example, and he didn't say anything about that... I don't know if I should bother going any further. Maybe I'll just pick and chose what I'll do from here on out. That's prolly what I'll do. I don't want to waste my time doing work that isn't going to help me, if I could allocate my time to more useful endevours, like studying for a different final, that would be good.

Tuesday I have a physics final from 5:15 to 7:15, and then an ichthyology exam from 7:30 to 9:30 pm. You know how much that's going to suck? After my physics final it's going to be lucky that I'm not braindead, but nooo I'm going to my ichthyology final which of course involves a ton of memorization and it'll have lots of essay questions... Also since the profs forgot to give us our final practical last week in lab, we're having practical stuff on the exam too. Gaaaah... How can they do this? Well, we are a small class (9 ppl remember?) so we can take our final in the lab... which now that I think about it will suck because the tables aren't great for writing on, as in not entirely comfortable... :P I never quite figured out how to identify the larval fish either, which sucks because I know they'll have larval fish identification on there... Well, the problem is I was supposed to be able to see these lines along the sides of the fish under the microscope, but it's really really hard to see them... when we were doing larval fish identification I couldn't see them then either... oh well, it's just one small part of the whole right. Stop stressing Tanya...

Friday I have my last final, environmental geology. It starts at 7:45 am. Yes, I said am. Yuck, I'll have to wake up so early to get there... -_-

Also I have one last paper that I need to write for biostats. I should write it tonight actually, so I can hand it in after the final. It's due on Thursday but I'm not going to have time to do it monday or tuesday... and I'm not going to go to school again until friday. So that really doesn't give me a chance to hand it in on thursday...

I was intially mad about breaking up with Matt before my finals... however it's prolly best that we did now, because I don't have time to dwell on things.

I'm sick too. Blech. So I'm stressed over finals, which makes me sick to begin with, then I'm sick with some stupid ass flu on top of that... and then on top of that is the whole matt issue, which isn't helping. x.x

I just have to survive a lil bit more... x.x

I love my family

Ok, this happened in the car when I was driving with the family to college (I was heading to take my biostats final). We saw a big black dog wandering around confused by the side of the road... wandering into the road, running down the center, etc (o.O). We had to slow down to almost a stop to avoid him (I'm assuming it was a him, anyway...) and we were debating as to why he was there. I was assuming he belonged to one of the houses near where he was, I swore I spotted a part of a chain attached to his collar. Mom said maybe he was dropped off there since he looked so confused. I was like poor dog... She was like, 'yeah, it happens, it's so stupid, people just drop their dogs off on the side of the road for whatever reason... like maybe they had a baby and it was allergic or something' and I was like 'damn babies!!' and mom was like 'well, it's not like it's the babies fault! The parent can't be like 'well, my dog is allergic to the baby! I need to give the baby up for adoption!!' Then she realised that she had meant to say that the baby was allergic to the dog... I had fun teasing her about that, saying 'my dog is allergic to this damn baby! I need to get rid of it!' and my lil sister and brother chimed in saying 'that's what we'd do!' xD Mom was like 'I hope none of you have kids...' None of this was said meanly, we were all laughingly talking... My sister and brother both say that they do not want kids and were saying this in the car, and I was like I've taught you 2 well! haha

My sister says she's going to get her tubes tied the day after she turns 18. I hope that she doesn't get any problems doing so...

Also last week me and mom were talking about kids, I had just been bingoed by this woman working in walmart. Mom had told her that I didn't want kids, and the woman was like 'ooooh you'll change your mind! My daughter didn't want kids either, but now she has 2!' and I was like 'o.O I'm not changing my mind!' When me and mom were in the car I asked mom 'do you think I'll change my mind?' and she said no, she didn't think I was going to. 'Unless you have an accident...' and I was like 'I'm not going to have an accident... plus, accidents can be fixed...' and mom was like 'you'd have an abortion??' And I was like 'well... yeah... I'm not going to have kids and I don't want to go thru pregnancy... Obviously I'm not going to abort some fully formed baby but in the early stages it's just a blob of cells' And she was like 'that wouldn't make you feel bad?' Ok, so maybe it would make me feel somewhat bad, but damnit! I don't want kids! But I'm not going to do something stupid that's going to cause me to get to that point, so it's not really important... She was like ok, but just don't do anything that you'll regret, and I was like I know... Then she started talking about me getting my tubes tied this summer! I'm so glad that my mom's supportive of this idea! (tubes tied... or whatever everyone else was talking about a while ago...)

It's not just my mom either, my gramma knows how much I don't want kids, and is fine about me not having kids. I was talking to her about one of my ex boyfriends (not matt or scottie), and how it wouldn't have worked out between us because he wanted kids and kept looking longingly at sprogs when we were in a restaruant or whatever... and gramma was like 'have kids in this day and age?? Is he nuts???' xD She doesn't want to see me or my siblings have sprogs. haha

Now my family is totally supportive of my childfree-ness... all I have to worry about is whatever partner I find being childfree as well... lol :P

cross-posted to childfree

Now, I really need to stop procrastinating and study for finals... lol